Wednesday, May 2, 2007
umar didnt tell me that there was no more video thingy today.
i asked him in the morning if we were staying in school all through.
he nodded his head and said yeah.
=.="
after civics i went to v13 and was like ??? o_O?
there was no one !
luckily kailiang came sauntering over.
and he told me that the lead asyraf couldnt make it
so it was cancelled.
=.=" zomg luh ! umar could have at least had the decency to tell me...
anyway,
so i went to parkway to meet my mom.
she was getting my phone.
whooohoo.
now i have the brown cybershot k800i :D
in school i was like totally falling asleep.
cos last night i lay awake in bed.
thinking& thinking& thinking& thinking.
i just couldnt fall asleep.
thinking about so many things.
the heartwarming times,
versus all those lies.
it was so long ago,
i dont know why i still think about it.
i dont know why its still sitting there at the back of my head.
i dont know why i bother reliving it over and over again.
i dont know why i try remembering how i felt.
i dont know why i keep thinking about all those "What Ifs"
what if i did this? what if i said that? what if i gave in? what if you compromised? what if we were both less self centered and gave more?
i dont dont dont dont dont know why i still care at all.
not like it matters anymore.
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i have violin class tomorrow.
cos its stupid smelly thursday.
AND, i wanted to practice my violin.
my mother always complains that i dont practice my violin at all.
but when i want to practice,
shes watching her hongkong dramas on ch55.
(which have replays tomorrow, )
and when i want to practice
she will say
"im watching tv, you dont practice now."
and she watches tv from after dinner time straight through the rest of the evening - night.
i have violin class tomorrow,
i have school tomorrow.
so when am i supposed to practice?
HELLLOOOO????
and i bet tomorrow shes gonna make a fuss
that i never practice.
and laoshi is going to make a face
tell me i cant slack with my diminished sevenths and scales anymore.
complain about me not playing the running notes in the concert piece clearly enough.
that i get all the notes right for my exam pieces but dont care about the sound.
=.="
oh whatever.
i dont like my violin.
it sounds funny.
yes blame it on the violin.
i want a new violin.
i dont know why laoshi seems to think my violin is such a good violin.
i shall tell him he can go sell it for me since he thinks it can fetch so much.
bleagh.
oh i feel sorry for my pinky.
it still isnt straight.
lalalalalallala.