Tuesday, July 31, 2007

im so sleeeeeepy.
&&i want to post a picture.
but blogger is being annoyiiinggggg again.
so i cant post ANY pictures.
&& im so sleepy i cant even remember why on earth im posting, cos i cant remember a thing i wanted to say.
actually i remember bits& pieces, but they dont fit together,
& i cant make sense out of them.
or why in the first place i even wanted to post those things.

&& every single soul in my class is MUGGING.
and theyre ALL mugging.
& im sleeeepy.
im soooo sleeepy.
& i dont know why im so sleepy,
when i sleep so much more than them!
i sleep&i sleep& i sleep 7 and a half hours everyday,
but i can hardly keep my eyes open.
whyyyy am i so sleepy?

why is everyone studying so hard?
am i weird or are they weird?
i think im the one who's "off center". thats what lavan always says anyway,
that im "off center".
but i dont think he was referring to this anyway,
but well.
r-e-v-i-e-w w-e-e-k
dissecting the word isn't going to do much.
but OHWELLLLLL.
ALALAALA.
to be happy, say :" IM HAPPY ! OHMYGOSH IM SO HAPPY !" and then SMILEEEEEEEEEEE&
think of happy things like ahmmie and hohmmie and i wonder why on earth that amuses me like it does but well.
"HELLOOKITTYYYY" O____OOO
heeeeeeeeeeh ^^


ohmannnn.
math again tomorrow,
"classssss, can you bring your math textbooks tomorrow?"
"no..."
eheeeeh.
oh i love des for being sucky at PE like me !
standing aside and watching people dance is simply amusing ^_______^

gooooodluck to you dearrrrrrrrrrrrrrest darren tortoise i hope you get fullmarks for your history quiz thingy tomorrow(:

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Saturday, July 28, 2007

marriage pact or not,
no one should have to marry someone they dont want to marry.
that is just stupid.
what on earth is the point?

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Friday, July 27, 2007

oh yayyums ! our group won for indieventure ! zomg !
& we spent the first two days slacking !
completely skiving off ! ohmygosh. ahahaa.
we thought we'd either get second or nothing at all.
& we got first zomg !

oh yesterday after our presentation we went to eat
"our group seriously eats the most"
we never ever see any other groups eating, and we're ALWAYS eating.
aha~ then to the swings !


the thing is PERPENDICULAR luh.


swinnnnnnng~


ohman i love this picture! its so funny !
me&sher have no idea what theyre laughing at half the time,
but their crazy laughter makes us laugh like mad too x)

so we went to watch simpsons today after school =DDDD
sher's mom didnt allow her to watch a movie so she said she'd meet us for swenson's after the movie.
so i went to watch simpsons with jonathan,thaiyong& amos.
jonathan promised to carry my laptop since he made me bring it,
but then amos carried it.
the pink&black bag.
ahahahaa~


swensons earthquake !

(before)



//END9:16 PM

Thursday, July 26, 2007

YAYYUMS
i really like indieventure week.
LOL, its funnnnnnnn.
ohman me&shermaine love our group =D
i thought we screwed Q&A up, but we got in! LOL.
so we have to present tomorrow.
at least we may win those movie tickets.
but win or lose we're still gonna go watch SIMPSONS !
wheeeeeeeeeeee~

our group seriously eats the most.
we're always eating !
thaiyong said we're gonna grow fat,
i think they should categorize me under overweight.
those people who set the weight thingies have ISSUES,
do i look in ANY way underweight at all?!
im so obviously fatter than ideal la, let alone underweight.
anyyywayyyyyyy,
ohyayyums.
ive been in such a good mood this past week.
AND ive acquired a HOUSE ELF ! - JOBBLES ! (jingrong)
jobbles, jobbles.
sounds so nice =D
JOBBLES !

today was supeeeeeeeeeeeeerfunny.
me&sher saw "those three people" like five times !
and i found out something supersuper crazy.
"HIS TWIN!?!?!?!"
and we so nearly got into trouble.
"lets faint T_____T"
"okay, 1,2,3, FAINT !"

teeeheeeeheee.
yayyums.
i cant wait for simpsons tml =DDDDDD lalallala

& andrea,me,timo have mini schnauzers !hahahaa.

//END5:58 PM

Monday, July 23, 2007

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Friday, July 20, 2007

I WILL NOT BE ONLINE AT ALL TOMORROW;
I AM GOING TO GET MY HARRYPOTTER BOOK7
AT 7AM.

I AM GETTING TWO BOOKS.
SO MY MOM AND ME CAN READ AT THE SAME TIME.
HA HA HA

OHMYGOD. 9 HOURS LEFT OHMYGOD

ohmygod. you have no idea what a HUGGABLE day today has been.
ohmygosh.
i love today.
as in i LOVEEE today.
i think pamela&yiling are my lucky charms.
anyway.
i was eating w/ des and kenneth when pam called to say she arrived.
i chomped down one more mouth of noodles and asked kenneth to help return and literally ran with my arms wide open to pamela and yiling.
and then i gave pamela a massive hugggg & pulled yiling into our EMBRACE.
hahahahah <3


i was so happy to see them!!
so we went to general office to like ask if they could conduct survey
(which we really shouldnt have bothered with. it was a complete total waste of time)

anyway, then we wandered around& ms thick skinned pamela got me to treat them to milkybars which i was more than willing to, considering the brilliant mood i was in : D

we sat on the swings and laughed& laughed and talked& i was so happy
then it started to RAIN LOL.


so we went in to sit on the sofas to talkkkkkk.
and i showed pamela some person.
and the blind woman is seriously BLIND.
i sweeeeeear.
"i cant really see properly"
ohmygosh.so cleeear !

oh i love this picture :D
then it was time for bio and i purposely made myself five minutes late.
heeeeeh.
so i had to run back to class


AND THEN NEXT BREAK I SAW DEARR LAIIII!
OHMYGOSH.
she gave me a BIGGGGGGGGG hug too
ohmy.

i look seriously bad here but since its with LAIIIIII ! =D
ohmygosh. then while lai was queueing for her lunch she asked
:" what time u gotta go back?"
so i checked my watch. "1.2o"AND IT WAS ALRDY 1.15!
ohmygosh. i was devastated. hahaha.
cos bio exceeded, and i was upstairs for a while.
and lai was setting up her booth.
aw man.
so i left at 1.22, and ran all the way back again =.="
oh well ! it was muuch more than worth it :D

okay



//END9:18 PM

Thursday, July 19, 2007

im having PROBLEMS uploading pictures.
i wonder whyyy.

goodnews:

1. laiiiiiii is coming to VJ tomorrow for science thingy so i can see her.
2. PAMELA KOH is coming to VJ to interview TAP people so i can SEE HER !<3

i shall dedicate one break to pamela and one break to lai : D

yayyums ! <3

i cant wait to see them tomorrow ohmygosh.
seeing pamela koh will totally make my day !
she said yiling is coming im not sure if its her volleyball friend or my DEAREST LITTLE NU ER!
if its tang yiling i'll scream for joy : D
then it'll be triple happiness.

pam,lai and yiling ! ohmygosh ohmygosh,.
im so excited !!!!! <33333

i think i'll give them all humongous hugs and refuse to let go :DDD
oh ive missed them SOOOOO much.
esp. lai ! i havent seen her in like more than a year ! and the alst time i saw her was at vip open house last year. that was so brief. and then the previous time would be in primary school!
thats even longer : D

ohmy i still rmb lai's dad said to me "hey su, when are u coming to our house again?"
ohmygosh.
<333333
i miss pokemon monopoly !

oh and on tues PE was super annoying but super funny.
cos i was doing it with des, my partner in crime.
we are notorious.
we dont do anything he says.
he;s raving mad
we hardly do anything. and then we laugh so hard.
we walk two rounds they run three.
and i didnt have to do no push ups cos of my thumb.

ohhhhlalaa.
im a happyhappyhhappy person<3

OHPRINCETONIWANTYOU:D
new jersey. ohmy.
shall have to be asking meli about that us programme for ivy league thingy soon.
ohman.
i cant wait, college !
i hope me and yimmy can go to college in US tgt.
forget ip3& 4 : D
and she can forget her dhs yr 5& 6
ohman.
<333333

//END9:43 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

i envy gerluo.
she loves briyani rice and briyani rice loves her too.
and theyre so cute, been together so loooong.
for some reason i even know their little monthly anniversaries.
4th of every month. hmmm (:
its so cutesy.


right. so now its OFFICIAL in dunman high,
that you are ALLOWED TO EAT IN CLASS. just empty the bin after the breaks.
WTHHHHHHHHHHHH.
MY PICNICS WITH GERLUO ARE LEGAL NOW?!?!?!
... NOW?!
wth. and i used to have to worry about fangfang. tsktsktsk.
now shes GETTING MARRIED, shes become VERY lenient.
its my luck. just my luck you know?


oh you dont know how much i WISH we were still in sec2.
and judging by the date on one of those photos, that was a good one year ago.
one entire year?!
its so surreal



happy picnics in class with my dear gerluo (:


cereal popping with boob : D


milo ball and boob.

oh how i miss them.
i miss boob a HELL lot.
cos i havent seen her in half a year.
and because there's no boob to boob around.
i havent been watching drake and josh.
its funny how,
when you're around certain people,
you like certain things, you do certain things.
you become a certain person.
i feel so sad.
i wish we could go back to everything.
i wish nothing changed.
i wish dunman high school still stayed exactly in that very spot.
i wish it was still there, for me to think back and loathe.
loathe the teachers, and those unreasonable creatures.
but at least its something familiar.
and the regular constant lifestyle.
every friday, off to macs with marcus and gerluo and sometimes boob.
and that horrible green fence, tempting me to climb over it or yell at someone in the field to open the gate so we wouldnt have to walk the really long way.
trying to trick our way in to the hostel so we could have a short cut.
much as i hated that smelly place,
i wish it still stood where it was.
the hall has been bashed in hasnt it?
that smelly hall i hated.
all gone.
didnt take me to start a fire in the science lab for the entire building to be gone huh.
i cant even go back to say hello to my friends anymore.
that stupid ghimo is so bloody far away.
and i miss them so much ):
i miss every single person in 2i.
and it doesnt feel the same, seeing them somewhere else, in a school i dont recognise.
sometimes it feels like they left. not me.



ziyu- supposedly off to america after sec 1, but he's still there(: his funny dao scary look, and when you talkto him, he gets all shy. x)
ronghui- robin hoon. ahahha (:
zhenzhou- "zhenzheeeeeen !"-and he'll give a shy smile.
marcus ng- ohmygod. my thick-skinned eunuch. i miss him LOTS.
weicong- TOILET.
hanmeng- mengma (: sits in front of me, turns around to chat oh so often ^^
xinyan- we always get stuck tgt as the only 2 girls in groups with the boys. hahaha. my dear camp group mate : D
jingjie- LJJ. lin ah maooooo. me, boob,glo,hanmeng's pet cat
yixiang- little black rabbit : D so cheerful always.
kenneth ang- the MosesLeeDeRong of 2i
ryan- MY FELLOW PINKLOVER !!!!!<3
lionel- LIONNNNNNN <3 (:
peirong- sweeet(:
cindy- jappie crazy ^^
yanlin- thanks to her im obsessed with japanese seventeen : D <3
elizabeth- lizard ^^
rachel chua- always so smiley looking like this =D
siewting- always so serious, but when u talk to her she smiles (:
daphne- the true Daffy Duck. and her famous screechy voice : D
simin- the super sweet one who pats my head all the time ^^
yuanjun- the smart philosophical one : D
shiyun- *cough*hairy M. *cough*
pamela- MY DEARRRRRR pamela : D too much to say.
siya- the TOUGH ONE ! obsessed with DUCKS.(for some strange unknown reason)
kawoon- CHIEF OF the FIVE WINDS BLOW VILLAGE ! <3 my seat partner for one term : D
hilda- MY DEARRRRRRRR hillly : D too much to say.
gloria- MY BESTBESTBESTBESTFRIEND IN THE WORLD <3
jiajia- the super duper cute tiny soft spoken super tan& skinny one : D
racheltang- NIANG<33 mother <33
kiayi- QIE! <3 concubine<3
shuyi- THE SUERDUPER cute tiny shuyi, with her lowwww voice. my illegitimate daughter
sinhui- my dear primary school bestie<3 PCK!
yuehuan- MY BROTHER JOSHHH!! <3 ie. BOOB
yiling- my LITTLE DAUGHTER WITH PAMELAAAA <3 x)
beverly- SE girl<33333

that sums it all up.
its more for myself to red, then for anyone else i suppose.
and for the 2i people who read,

i miss every single one of you SO much.

//END8:26 PM

Sunday, July 15, 2007

when you're sad,
listen to ARRITAKE NO AI DE - GACKT.
it'll brighten up your day, even though gackt is so morbid and thinks hes some 400+ year old vampire, but HE'S SO FUNNYYY~
oh reminds me of "MAGNUM" jokes with boob and gloria.
ahhhh~
feeling nostalgic.
"BUTABARAAAAAA "
*hysterical laughter*



oh i just made yimmy listen to arritake no ai de:

我爱你，你爱我！ says: WHAT A MANLY VOICE
我爱你，你爱我！ says:HAHAAHAH
♥su says:ITS A MAN HAHAHHAHAH
我爱你，你爱我！ says:I KNOW
我爱你，你爱我！ says:BUT SO MANLY

oh yimmy is trestrestres amusing xD

why the happy cheery picture of three simply adorable animals?
COS IM FEELING HAAAPPPPPY.
recently happiness has become this relatively rare feeling.
it makes me feel sad to think that ):
but i shant feel sad cos im rather happy !
whats making me feel so dreeeeeeeeeeeeary is SCHOOOOOL tomorrow.

ohgod i HATE science.
i'd like to do SINGLE science.
not TRIPLE science.
i'd choose chemistry.
at least its INTERESTING.

bio is torture. its SO boring. like i give two hoots about the structure of carbohydrates.
OR WHATEVER THE GOLGI APPARATUS IS !
it doesnt "ADD ANY VALUE TO MY LIFE !"
physics. PHYSICS. next time, when i drive, im so completely sure i'll care to draw a velocity, acceleration and displacement time graph for every single time i go for a spin.
oh come on ! spare me ! its not like im intending on being an engineer or something...

hmmmm.
it'd be ideal if...
we listened in for all three sciences, just for general knowledge, but only get tested on one. any one science. our choice.
AND, with ALL THAT LOT of time and paper(SAVE GAIA^^) saved, we can take up courses we're interested in !
for example, engineers can go do their engineering,
(AND I CAN GO DO SOME BASIC STUDIES OF ARCHITECTURE.)
AND for people who have no idea what they want to do, can go study everything else like usual.
triple sciences and what not.

whyyyyyywhyyyyy do i have to study all that scientific jargon?
nvm.
ishall go back to being happy.
and i shall go do other happy-making things : D

OH I JUST BOUGHT FIVE BOOKS TODAY !
YAYYYYUMS <3

//END9:02 PM

Friday, July 13, 2007

as real as it seems,
youre only in my dreams.





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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

BOYSLIKEGIRLS
oh all of a sudden i like them so very much.
not as much as FOB of course : D but well.

IM WATCHING HARRYPOTTER TOMORROW : D
with my mother, the sneak preview : DDD
after school.
yayyums.
my mom is a massive harrypotter fan.
its nice, to have a mother who loves potter as much as i do : D
maybe not AS MUCH, but pretty much ^^
hope this movie is good,
the 3rd and 4th installments were so baaaaaaaadd.
oh well.
yay i cant wait : D

i think im about the only person who hasnt much started on lit essay,
or any studying at all for that matter.
everyone's getting into some mugging mode for review week.
i miss gloriangiamhuiyiiiiiiii.
my gerluooooooooooooooo,
my companion who goes :" you studying? not studying right? okay you dont study i dont study : D"
and then we both have a great excuse NOT to study,
"oh well, SHES not studying. why should i?"
if only, if ONLYYYY i can find someone who's not studying their heads off.
hmmmmmmm.

thats depressing, all that talk about review week and school.
i must keep thinking of happy things.
hmmm. i need some reassurance.
i shall look in myself for it.
i wonder why i get affected by others so easily :S
what is it?
and the moment i ask myself that, i feel perfectly fine again.
maybe its cos i understand that i get affected too easily and should stop getting affected.
yupp: DDDD
i shall need someone to keep reminding me.

pamela koh is at the NIGHT SAFARI NOW.
i feel like laughing in her face.
but i shant.
night safari.
wahahahahahaaa.

I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE DRACODRACO DRAAAACO !
i hope tom felton appears in the movie.
ohplease have draco.
dracodracodraco.
if only he played a bigger role.
imagine if the story was from draco's POV,
he'd be the good guy right? and harry'd be this awful obnoxious pretentious turd.
lallaaaa
anyway i hate harry, everything is his fault.

//END8:20 PM

Monday, July 9, 2007

its so easy to forget. so easy its so scary.
i need to stay icy.

icy, icy, icy.



im tired of your childish quibbles.
im tired of watching u wallow in self-pity every single second of every single minute of every single hour of every single day.
im tired of putting up with your nonsense.
and i cant be bothered to anymore.
why should i?
why should i even care?
you go ahead and make yourself the most PITIFUL person on earth.
i tried okay? i tried.
maybe just trying isnt good enough, but i get tired too you know?
and if youre going to ignore it and think only of YOU, YOU & how BAD your life has turned out,
then go ahead.
all the time im with you the buzzing gets so hard to block out.
the buzzing works its way into my head and messes with it.
mess, mess, mess, and then i cant think. its so hard to untangle everything and straighten things out in my head.

im sorry if you feel ive let you down.
i may not be as big a pessimist as you,
i know your life is a hell lot tougher than mine,
and you wallowing in self pity isnt making it any better,
and its affecting me.
im not strong enough to stand up and be happy for both of us.
i wont try anymore, unless u initiate it for a change.
its your life,
screw it up if you want so badly to.

free. im free.
for the night.
and tomorrow, i wonder.
but you know what?
i bet i'll still be stuck there.
so much for the long speech.
i need HAPPY HAPPY HAPPINESS,
my cup of starbucks coffee with an extra expresso shot : D
like drugs, it gets me so high : D
i get high on a double shot of caffiene, i wonder how high i'll be if i take in some heroin.

not that i'll ever try.
im not stupid.
and its not like im depressed.
im happy okay?
happy.
so veryveryvery happy.
cos some people are so huggable loveable.
and my dear hilly SEEMS happy.
and that makes me so happy ^^

ohmygod. pamela koh is into kazuya.
WHY KAZUYA?
WHYYYY?
kazuya?! kazuya.
gosh.
i think that other guy is double hot.
the one that just came back to kat-tun.
you know which guy pam?
THAT guy. the one hotter than kazuya.
heh : DDDDDDDD
i forget his name.
ren? something like ren.
sexy name that is, REN.
shuuji is cute. SHUUJIIIIIII. but kazuya IS shuuji,
i think the NAME shuuji is cute.
shouji too.
shouji is a friggin double crosser though.
anyway.

i still owe
PAUL&WEIPING their letters.
since when? forever ago.
you see? wp you see? what happens when u write me a letter in chinese?
i'll finish them soon, before it hits a one year and i'll make a record and beat them in "not replying letters for the longest time"

//END9:17 PM

Sunday, July 8, 2007

them and their nonsensical buzzing.

its only sunday night but it's already getting to me.
i wonder how i'm going to get through five days of it.
well at least i'll have evenings and nights to block the white noise out.
but i know i'll still get through it.
at least i have a way of rewiring my brain around it.
slowly,
slowly, but oh so steady. the buzzing will be gone,
and there won't be any traces left, not even a soft hum or whisper.
i already know, exactly, what the cure is.
i just need to remember.
remember, remember, remember.
but its so difficult to remember,
when the buzzing is all around me, surrounding me, trapping.
and when i fall into the buzzing, when i listen to the buzzing, i get affected.
so affected by the buzzing, i play along with them, that i forget,
forget to block out.

and then, it gets so dangerous.
cos i tumble. i stumble and fall so hard.
straight into the mess, and i have to wait,
for so long, before i find the strength,
to pull myself out of their primitive pit.

buzzing and buzzing and buzzing.
i wish they would shut up, collapse, and keep quiet forever.
even better, if only the source of the buzzing would disappear from the surface of the earth.
i know just how; but im so afraid, it'll conjure up even more noise.
even more horrible horrible distracting buzzing.

----
me and my buzzing and i bet no one has a clue what im rambling on about.
went to starbucks at wheelock after lunch to take away a
GRANDE CARAMEL FRAPP.
hahahahaaaa. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee my lovelylovelylovely coffee.
who said money couldnt buy happiness?
it costs only $6.30 for a cup of joy.
ohmy, and the guy at the counter, i swear,
he was a splitting image of PETEWENTZ.
completely completely completely pete wentz.
ohmygosh.
i was O_OOOOOOOOOO ing
i swear, completely pete.
if u ever see him, the first thing that will pop into your head would be :" PETE!"
ah.
school.
school and all that distraction.
all the NOISE, all those CRAP WAVES affecting my BRAIN WAVES.

//END9:40 PM

Friday, July 6, 2007

without weekends; the space and time away,
for me to clear my head, of thoughts that cloud my mind.
that jam up my thinking processes.
that make me so silly, so vulnerable to their little traps and ploys.
but it's all okay now.
i just needed, this time away from their constant buzzing.
for everything,
to be icy clear again,
just the way, exactly, how it was supposed to be.


that must have been rather strange and confusing.
but oh well : D
its so easy to forget what goes in your blog and what goes in your diary.
but its okay, ive got a much more elaborated version of that in my own secret diary.
anyway, its not anything i dont understand,
since its my own screwed up brain.

all in all, i think im a very happy person.
i dont always think happy thoughts; but sometimes,
one happy, icy clear thought, makes all those angry thoughts,
dissipate.

lalallalalaaaaa~
i cant wait to see my pretty lushikoh girls : D
i miss them miss them miss them miss them.
hm, lushikoh outings give me the best memories.
ever : D

oh thank god its saturday tomorrow.
SAT-UR-DDAAAAAYYYYYYYY;
who doesnt LOVE saturdays?
i can do WHAT-E-VER i like on SAT-UR-DAYS : D
s-a-t-u-r-d-a-y!
SATURDAY ! LOL!
im going mad, oh its so lovely.
project k was today.
i was dressed in a hoobok looking like a clown,
but i guess it paid off,
we got quite a few tokens.
ten apparently ; D
i wonder, if we will manage a third prize?
or maybe, something better.
if thats, actually possible.
but oh well, better to be optimistic : D

im going to read the superguide for Trace Memory,
im stuck, stuck and wondering what to do, what is up,
with the painting of angels drumming.

//END8:56 PM

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

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Monday, July 2, 2007

in the end i didnt get to watch pirates ! ):
sunday morning, went to taka with mom, joonyeeyee & yimmy.

"hey ! we're both in black pants!"
"and we're both wearing converse!"

: DDDD




bought more books from kino. wheehee.
and i did get my Specials in the pretty cover !
went to paragon& so me and yimmy went off to popular while the moms shopped around.
it was such a loong walk and we got there before popular opened =.="

went back to paragon and discovered my mom bought two bags from yves saint laurent.

"come come ! look at this pink polka dot one ! i think its so you!" - my mom
"and YSL - your initials : D"

but it was the last piece and looked old so i didnt have it ):

had lunch and me and yimmy went off to vivo.
the tickets were SOLD OUT, cos we didnt think anyone would watch so we didnt book.
there were TWO seats left, individual, one each end of the first row =.=

"maybe we could sit on the steps...?"

=.=" so we went off for ben& jerry's instead.





//END8:28 PM