Sunday, July 8, 2007
them and their nonsensical buzzing.its only sunday night but it's already getting to me.
i wonder how i'm going to get through five days of it.
well at least i'll have evenings and nights to block the white noise out.
but i know i'll still get through it.
at least i have a way of rewiring my brain around it.
slowly,
slowly, but oh so steady. the buzzing will be gone,
and there won't be any traces left, not even a soft hum or whisper.
i already know, exactly, what the cure is.
i just need to remember.
remember, remember, remember.
but its so difficult to remember,
when the buzzing is all around me, surrounding me, trapping.
and when i fall into the buzzing, when i listen to the buzzing, i get affected.
so affected by the buzzing, i play along with them, that i forget,
forget to block out.
and then, it gets so dangerous.
cos i tumble. i stumble and fall so hard.
straight into the mess, and i have to wait,
for so long, before i find the strength,
to pull myself out of their primitive pit.
buzzing and buzzing and buzzing.
i wish they would shut up, collapse, and keep quiet forever.
even better, if only the source of the buzzing would disappear from the surface of the earth.
i know just how; but im so afraid, it'll conjure up even more noise.
even more horrible horrible distracting buzzing.
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me and my buzzing and i bet no one has a clue what im rambling on about.
went to starbucks at wheelock after lunch to take away a
GRANDE CARAMEL FRAPP.
hahahahaaaa. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee my lovelylovelylovely coffee.
who said money couldnt buy happiness?
it costs only $6.30 for a cup of joy.
ohmy, and the guy at the counter, i swear,
he was a splitting image of PETEWENTZ.
completely completely completely pete wentz.
ohmygosh.
i was O_OOOOOOOOOO ing
i swear, completely pete.
if u ever see him, the first thing that will pop into your head would be :" PETE!"
ah.
school.
school and all that distraction.
all the NOISE, all those CRAP WAVES affecting my BRAIN WAVES.