Sunday, December 30, 2007
i wish i was a storybook character.the happy one.
the one who's eternally happy.
i dont want to be the main character cos she always goes through some ordeal and suffers like hell; and too often, good stories end tragically.
i wanna be the happy girl embedded somewhere in the background.
the laughing one,
the one snuggling up close to her loved ones,
the blissful one,
the happy-go-lucky one,
the one who trips over her own shoelaces but finds someone right beside her ready to help pick her up and they laugh it off together.
the one people sometimes overlook but doesnt care,
cos she's already so happy where she is.
i always wanted to be special,
but now i just want to be happy.
really really really happy.
i want to be the happy girl.
cos happy is good, and happy is enough (:
im going to be happy and cheery like a bundle of sunshine.
:D
if thats what you want me to be :D
Saturday, December 29, 2007
i miss pamela koh.
and hilda cheong.
why is it that pam and hil never ever ever piss me off or ever annoy me and that i love them with every fibre of my being and not a microscopic bit of me ever gets upset with them even when both of them are 40 minutes late and im left standing alone in some stupid mrt station?
why is it that pam and hil are ALWAYS there, somewhere?
even if theyre not literally by my side i just know they'll be there.
god i miss them so much ):
but im (((((((((((((((((: cos i know i have these two lovely girls.
and theyre the best ever friends anyone could ever have :D
i wanna grow old with both of you!
oh.
ipo is over.
its a little surreal.
we were planning for so long?
maybe we didnt meet up that many times..
but still !
these 3 days seemed really short.
oh well, theres 01 !
: D
a part of me agrees with des,
i shouldnt have to deal with this !
i wonder if i chose it xP
i think even she's tired of listening to my chain of endless problems about the same thing.
well its hardly my fault i cant make up my mind !
fine maybe it is.
i need a time out !
but i dont want one : D
you see thats the problem.
i feel like telling everyone in the world
" i love you !"
when maybe i dont, not right now.
but i'd say it so i'd believe it and make some sad lonely souls happy.
cos its nice when someone loves you isnt it?(:
i wish i loved everyone in the world !
i'd be a very happy person.
:D
maybe then i should learn to love every single person in the world.
including those who stepped on my toes and all over my feet.
like ms toh.
hur.
i could.
i think, if i tried(:
reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally hard.
but then again, i think only saints can.
and im hardly one.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
are you okay?
yes i am.
but no actually im not.
why do people ask?
"are you okay?"
when of course they'd reply "yes i am"
because even if youre not okay you'd say you are.
what else could you say?
if you said "no im not",
it would just bring on a whole new wave of questions that'd make you go through everything you'd rather put aside and try not to think about.
but they still ask,
because they'd feel better after the person said "yes im fine"& maybe sometimes whoever it is really IS fine.
which would be realllly stupid if they went about feeling bad about something that doesnt even exist.
bah.
its a funny feeeeeling im feeeling.
pffffffffft.
des seems to think im on the verge of tears every single moment of the day.
"what are you doing?!"
"i yawned."
at least she cares :D
lets hope tomorrow is reeeeaaaaally fun.
i wanna laugh !
i dont feel like im about to laugh right now but i mean i want to laugh.
i want to laugh and reallyreallyreally laugh cos i find it really really really funny and reallyabsolutely truly and completely mean it.
cos it makes me feel good.
like the time i couldn't stop laughing when i told amos the "amos-quito" joke.
that was goooooooood.
i think its the best joke i've heard in forever.
& it came from my tiny little cousin who's so tiny she cant even spell "dictionary" yet(:
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
bah.
im going to go meet the little juniors tomorrow with puffy eyes or something..
):
so unglam.
i didnt know i was a wet games master.
i said i didnt mind i didnt know they actually put me up for it !
but its a good thing i guess :D
cos it'll be fun !
and i dont have to run around from station to station :D
yay i cant wait for 01 !
):
waiting for desireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee;
what'd i do without her?
& i need a hug from pamela and hilda and gloria each too.
cos i need ALOT of hugs now.
maybe im just reallyyy tired (:
hello you unfair smelly little big fat ugly pretty strange weird happy sad depressing crazy insane annoying upsetting world ):
that makes me feeeeeel like im the luckiest girl in the world sometimes(:
maybe its just for a while that i dont feeeeeeel quite that way.
maybe?(:
heee.
again its jingrong who makes me smile when im all upset (:
thankyou x 10000000 jobbles (:
ohman im realllly thankful !
i cant believe he found that little spark that could cheer me up !
its more than a little spark. its a shimmering something thats making me happy(:
jingrong you should go be a counsellor :D
i dont know what on earth id do without a friend like you (:
&des i looooove you for being online to taaaalk to me(:
Monday, December 24, 2007
i was SUPPOSED to go see fireworks/countdown to xmas or something w friends.but my great ole' mom said "No"
zomg.
pffffffffffffffffffffffffffft.
its XMAS EVE !
i feel like my existence is rather pathetic,
wtblah i can't go countdown to xmas?!
bah.
& i dont want some silly stupid WS on sea regatta.
& i wanna pon the culinary workshop cos it clashes w/ 01 & it lasts like literally the whole DAY!
by time i get back it'll be twilight luh.
i hope mr boy exempts me ):
today's been a
& mr magorium is just very OK.
its like 2 popcorns outta 5 !
anyway its random but i really dont like the word prognosticate.
its so, eurgh.
i dont mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see
Them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do
I dont mind
I dont care
As long as you're here
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
But in-between it always seems too long
Suddenly
But I have the skill,
yeahI have the will,
to breath you in while I can
However long you stay is all that I am
I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here
& i cant believe how many times i've nearly let the words slip out of my lips !
anyway
merrrrrrrychristmas lovelies !
ITS CHRISTMAS IN 1hr7minutes !
sorry 3 of you ): i wanted to go ):
its just my mom's being annoying ):
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
merrychristmassssssssss !
i think ive said it 5 times.
MERRYCHRISTMAS !
imagine if it were jollychristmas!
thats fine too aye.
so JOLLYCHRISTMAS!
Sunday, December 23, 2007
when im with you,
i'll make every second count.
cos i miss you,
whenever youre not around.
i'll make every second count.
cos i miss you,
whenever youre not around.
went x'mas shopping in town with my mom today.
walked up and down orchard till my feet were so sore and my arms were aching from carrying all the bags.
lollllll.
but its so satisfying !
&&&& i finally got my SAT books ! yayyums!
oh x'mas is lovely,
walked up and down orchard till my feet were so sore and my arms were aching from carrying all the bags.
lollllll.
but its so satisfying !
&&&& i finally got my SAT books ! yayyums!
oh x'mas is lovely,
but the crowds are awwwful lol.
ohman im addicted to when im with you by faber drive !
& im not emo !
emo is so emo !
xP
emo is so emo !
xP
the hols are ending soon ):
its depressing.
ohthankyou kevin for maths (:
wont someone teach meee?!?!!?
des is evil& lazy she's not doing the revision papers ! (just cos shes so smart she doesnt neeeed to do them xP )
so shes not teaaaching me ):
but overall the hols have been grrrreat(:
theyve kinda ended already i suppose.
26th there's OGL stuff, 27th,28th&29th IPO, a nice lovely empty 30th.. then its the NEW YEAR already ):
oh i hope 01 will be reallyreally great !
andrea (my cousin) chose RJ ! so she's not coming to vj ): cos her prelim results got her into RJ, VJ was her second choice ! oh it wouldve been brilliant if she came to VJ! then it'd be so fun!!! ):
but RJ's for smarter people lol so i shall be happy for her :DDDD
i hope ms ong's our CT next year!
next year'll be so busy ):
i hope i get my rm!!!
i wanna be with andrea& adeeb& shermy ):
im not studying for chem repaper yet cos i'll forget everything if i study so early x)
ok,
merry christmas everyone !!!!
ohman i cant wait for christmas so i can open presents !
ive kept edward's in the same hellokitty bag so i can open it again on christmas :D heh.
Friday, December 21, 2007
and i wonder what i'd do if he loved her.i'd scream& cry& throw a tantrum.
hahahaha.
no i wont xP
i'd just get all emozxzxzx and slit my wrists.
no i wont xP
i'd make a voodoo doll of her and prick it with pins.
no i wont xP
i'd throw myself into the ocean or jump down a fifty story building,
no i wont xP
i'd run to desiree/anthea and cry my heart out& tell myself i should have known.
yes i would(:
gosh, i certainly hope i dont have to :S
i swear enchanted is the best movie in a loooonglonglonglong time.
its one of those movies where you can watch it in the cinema lots&lots&lots&lots of times(:
ive watched it twice and i wanna watch it againagainagain !
sea regatta games dryrun tomorrow !
yayyums(:
gotta leave early for some wintersolstice dinner with family& stuff.
i wanna play kanon with yimmy on piano & have christopher accompany us on the drums !
yayyyyyyy.
i wish i could go out everyday till 12am.
& my mom wouldnt say a thing.
yes thats my christmas wish : D
cos then i'd be making her happy by coming back early even if i reached home at 10 or 11.
thats nice isnt it?
so annoying.
i havent seen weiping&paul this hollllllll ))))))))))))))))))):
why does it feel like last week i saw you guys dancing that silly para para thingy gaily/gay-ly & eating at longjohnssilver with weiping's food flying out of his mouth while he talked with his mouth full.
& running around toysrus in paragon !
& watching eragon !
& waiting for you guys while you went to the toilet like ten times in one day.
& watching you guys share a real gingerbreadman.
& having smoothies or whatnot together at thaiexpress.
it feels like last week , or last month at most
cos i can remember it so clearly.
but its been a FULL YEARRRR xP
& i havent gone out with marcusng& pammie )))))))))):
& i havent gone out with chicken&pck&claire xP
& i havent seen tunghsi for forever.
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
but its been a happyhappyhappy holidays nonetheless ! :DDDDD
merrrrrychristmas everyone !
& may all your wishes come true,
& may you all kiss your one true love under the mistletoe,
cos "nothing's more powerful than true love's kiss!" (as i quote from enchanted :D)
just in case i dont post on xmas day.
oh!& as i promised to post:
youre the best, anthea ! (:
hahhahaa
Monday, December 17, 2007
vanishing varnish.
just imagine that !
bah.
im back from japan !
i'll post about that soon.
now its dinner time.
&&& i dont feel like staying online much longer.
please dont vanish.
Sunday, December 9, 2007
i must stop this bad habit of not posting for days and then posting twice on the same day.
bah.
well i just thought i'd say this now.
senpai no koto wa sekai de ichiban dai suki da yo.
majide dai suki.
zutto zutto zutto dai suki.
go figure.
goodbye world(:
ps. CHEERUP josh, i'll be here too !
im off to japan tomorrow !
lalala.
i cant wait to be off !
ohman,
i still remember posting about the LizLisa sale half a year ago before i went to tokyo.
time passes so quickly !
its been half a year already.gosh.
its nice to be away once in awhile,
i try never to use msn or get online when im overseas,
so i dont have to deal with the world here.
its nice,
to be away.
then i can forget my life here for a while.
nothing to worry about at all.
and i got a new pair of boots from river island !
i really love them cos theyre all comfy and soft : D
winter is nice once in a while cos you can wear all the stuff you cant wear in singapore :D
pretty dresses with leggings and mittens and boots and scarves and coats and woolly cardigans& such(:
wonder if anyone's done their homework.
bah math stinks.
theres SO much math& chinese !
& i swear, water margin is killing me):
its like,
horror and macabre !
its all about murdering this person and that person.
its like "im gonna kill whoever gets in my way or pisses me off;& no i wont use a gun or a knife, i'll just use a club and bludgeon him to death ! oh yes because im ohoho mighty strong !"
oh its awwful.
im going to bring bento to school next year.
hilly is too i think.
because its "healthy and so cute !"
speaking of which !
i saw HILLY&PAMELA yesterday !
hil gave me cookies for my belated birthday and a really cute hellokitty keychain & peter rabbit file.
ohmygosh the cookies were so yummy !
she says they were "baked with love for a special someone"
so sweet aye(:
pamela loved the cookies.
aahahaha she claimed the coffee flavoured ones tasted like popcorn.
theres something wrong with her.
we took our usual three sets of neoprints :D
and wandered around.
hil is bread-obsessed.
i swear, shes completely bread-crazy,
not just plain bread but those fancy ones.
hahaha she had milk and lemon flavoured bread for a snack while me and pam had normal stuff like beard papa cream puffs and obanyaki.
anyway,
I LOVE YOU BOTH
sekai de ichiban dai suki na ii tomodachi LOVE !
ps. hilly, write me a japanese letter again please ): i miss those japanese notes we used to pass in class so much! ): we didnt even have to use invisible ink like me and gloria did cos hardly anyone else understood. bah, i havent received a japanese letter in a year you know.
pps. SORRY PAM! i'll write your letter the moment i get back.
heh. you've been a month late before havent you ! i'll write a long one to make up for it : D
i must remember to write anthea a postcard.
i must remember to write anthea a postcard.
i must remember to write anthea a postcard...
goodbye world !
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
thanks to anthea&jerald who KEEEEEEP playing hands down now ive gone a little loony about it too : D
we were SUPPOSED to do chinese project today,
but we didnt.
so we hung around outside the ip classrooms for a while cos every room in the school was like locked and we werent allowed into the library cos we were in VJ tees and not school uniform.
bah.
so we went to KFC for lunch then checked out borders.
apparently des wants to read O____O GASP*
ahhaah.
she wanted a jodi picoult book !
so i got her to get one that i didnt have so that she could lend it to me and i'd lend her mine(:
then we flipped through magazines,
got bored cos they have so few teen mags that are worth reading.
only US Seventeen& Cosmo girl.
des was flipping through teens and we got the shock of our lives.
zomg !
they have a page for twits to dedicate things to fellow twits its SO scary !
"mieXx LuRbbEz EuUz 4eV@ w0rx"
*shudders*
then i found bridal magazines !
i like them cos they have PRETTY CAKES& DRESSES !
and really cool invitation card ideas,
and bridesmaid dresses,
which are REALLY nice.
me: which of these dresses would you like me to wear to your wedding?(:
des: WTH ! why are you planning for marriage at this age?!
me: im not planning for mine, im planning for yours : D
des: THATS THE PROBLEM OMG.
i love her :DDDDDDD
then we found kenneth grinning sneakily at a magazine on the other side of the racks.
des thought he was reading something dirty,
we went up close and he was reading a
Wii magazine.
hahaaha.
YAY ! igor outing again tomorrow !
i think we're the best :DDDDDDD
really.
& oh yesterday was so fun :DDDDDD
bowling& Fred Claus :D
& alot of waiting-for-edward-while-he-does-his-filming.
me,anthea&jerald played cards till we were so bored we played MONKEY.
zomg i love monkey.
its so fun :D
good exercise aye.
ah& we're so nice,
edward was the only one with THREEE assistants :DDDDDD