Thursday, February 28, 2008
its been a GOOD DAY.surprisingly; considering how its the busiest(nearly, save friday) day of the week.
finally got my JLPT3 results. I PASSED! and i think i did rather well!
im incredibly glad; i wasnt even sure if i would pass. got about 76% !
"eh?!majide?! minna omedetou gozaimasu!!"
&sensei was glso excited(:
plus violin was good cos laoshi finally let me play something other than exam pieces!
plus philo was super fun cos we had puzzzzzles !
tomorrow will be a GOOD DAY. i have to maintain an optimistic attitude.
finally; 0.2 of the school year is over. only four fifths left!
THANK GOD.
school is absolutely dull.
oh dear application forms come out please; give me and sherm something to look forward to maaaaaan.
oh my sexy shermy is online. goodbye then !
Monday, February 25, 2008
feels like a stab through the heart;literally.
im not dissecting a sheep's heart.
its a SHEEP for pete's sake !
im pro-lamb/sheep/goat.
i dont eat mutton; lamb
therefore, i will not prod at the pitiful, pure, deceased's heart.
have some respect for the dead !
how'd you like it if someone stabbed you through the heart?
or tore it apart just to see what was inside?
only to find a thousand different images of themselves captured within.
SAVE THE LAMBS !
ps. 0.17 of the school year is over. hurrah.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
it is said that all true writers own moleskines.and therefore i must acquire a moleskine of my own!
to develop my mind. (hahaha, i amuse myself.) and to bring me the inspiration and motivation i clearly lack to complete the inexorable task of writing a play.
i find difficulty in just having to say "i have to write a play".
nah thats really just an excuse actually,
i just want to own a moleskine for the sake of owning one because it seems so, well, scholarly.
hey ! it's nothing less than "the legendary notebook used for the past two centuries by great artists and thinkers, including Vincent Van Gogh, Pablo Picasso, Ernest Hemingway, and Bruce Chatwinis".
i have a VERY soft spot for frivolous things.
:D
llalaa~ love you sherm till the end of my life LOL.
"if you dont want me, neither do i !"
ps. sherm im still typing super quickly because i'm so excited for us! (thankfully unlike you im saving myself "speeeeeling errors" :D)
Friday, February 22, 2008
to disremember;to forget on purpose;
to erase, to undo, to destroy the memory/ memories.
sounds feasible?
clearly isnt.
taboo; BOO!
i hate local contexts.
its tres boring ):
i forgot it was SINGAPORE youth dramatist award.
bah i shall just try my best :D
i hate it when people upset the people i care about ):
it makes me very very angry and makes me wanna throttle that very criminal.
im lost for words.
And I'll be here by the ocean
Just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams
All my sand castles fall like the ashes of cigarettes
And every waves drags me to sea
I could stand here for hours
Just to ask God the question,
"Is everyone here make-believe?"
With a tear in His voice,
He said, "Son, that's the question."
Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?
i love you anthea !(:
i love you shermy ! *snaps fingers*
whenever i snap my fingers i feel like something magical may happen(:
magic magic magic ! i got 47 for my chinese essay even though i wrote it in my very very very incredibly broken and simplistic chinese, because i said that my dream was to build a themepark more magical than disney land, so that i could bring magic to the world :D
magic makes things happen.
no, things make magic happen.
thank god its friday.
ITS FRIDAY !
if not because its friday i think i'd die from exhaustion tomorrow.
school depletes me. i hardly feel enriched.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
everything's becoming such a drag.i could swear life is in black and white and not a million shades of gray.
i havent got the ability to write, so what right do i have to critically analyse someone else's work?
it's absurd.
i could sit you down and explain line by line what every word in my ekphrastic response meant; including all the attatched connotations/double meanings and what not;
but i simply cant seem to be able to put them down on paper.
it's RESTRICTIVE and its CRAMMING MY STYLE; because i have to do it in this CERTAIN format that is required in school; that has been set by someone else,whose name i do not know, who died eons ago. whats wrong with writing my 'introduction' in the 4th paragraph? can't i start with my 3rd paragraph? oh no, its too confusing; but well im sorry that im just LIKE THAT. screwed up if you must; but im sorry my brain doesnt work in that step-by-step manner like the common laypeople so THERE.
this is god-awful.
im just being a whiny brat so bare with me because i think i deserve to be a whiny brat today because you have NO idea what its like to feel so upset with this world because everything is so incredibly disappointing and DULL, that makes you feel like shaking every person you see on the street and screaming " WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!",
and therefore i think that in essence, the problem lies with ME.
i have absolutely no inspiration whatsoever to analyse my OWN poem; (which is so completely idiotic; why do i have to analyse something i wrote?)
i just feel like sitting down, taking a calendar for the next ten years and plotting out my life and all the steps i'd take. and then tear it all up and throw it in the bin because i know i'll never follow it.
oh god, someone SAVE ME.
after so much of this useless banter im still resigning to my fate and going off to write the analysis for my VERY OWN POEM which i have YET TO TITLE because i think it is shitty and cliched and exaggerated and dramatised and awful i feel embarassed to even NAME IT.its goose-bump inducing; at least to me.
this always happens when i have to hand in my own pieces.
i like to keep them to myself.
im very very exclusive. ha. ha.
no actually im just afraid of embarassment.
i shant dawdle here any longer because its called procrastinating and procrastinating is for the weak minded, so there, goodbye.
Monday, February 18, 2008
we just needed a well-deserved break.i didnt dye my hair; its a reflection.
i give ps i love you 2.5/5 popcorns. if it werent for pam's company it'd only get 1.5/5.
it doesnt adhere to the book! disappointing; and just for the record, daniel isnt supposed to be a lunatic/loser.
we had two medium gelatos it was so decandant. ooooh rum cream& apple pie :D
wonder when i'll see pam next ): pity hil couldnt come along.
saturday nights should be spent like that; in reallyreally great company :D
ah, 2 valentines day photos(: i havent uploaded anything else yet.
my most incredibly adorable shermy aka valentine :D
:DDDDDDFriday, February 15, 2008
i love sherm(:we can empathise with each other;
and we still find each other to be tons and heaps and truck loads of fun :D
i love julius CAESER salad !
sherm loves SNAP wham bam !
:D :D :D
theyre so cute nobody can get what on earth we're rambling on about but,
YAYYY !
"i hope nobody gets it"
"how could they? its so no-link"
P.S. I Love You; paaaaaamela !
7pm tomorrow :D
Thursday, February 14, 2008
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY !
"what shall we name ourselves?!"
"lets be the finger people! :D"
" oh yes oh yes !! "
"lets PASS DOWN THE HUG !"
i love lit option; the company's brilliant.
especially the finger people(:
rachel me sherm xianhwee.
we had a mere 23 mistakes !
thats what too much time does to you;
all the last minute changes were ALL WRONG. lol(:
well, its been a really brilliant valentines day; considering how my date was a violin...
but no, seriously.
its been lovely !
thankyou to everyone everyone everyone everyone ! for everything everything everything !
for; as kiron said -"sulin's bag of stuff !" ! and the hugs,hugs, and more hugs ! and the "happy valentines day!!! "s and the "i love you!"s and the "i miss you!"s !
just now i typed out a whole chunk of individual "thankyou for..."s for everyone but decided to cut it off cos i think i should start making short posts instead of lengthy essays.
my mom thinks its a day for suckers;
"how's valentines day different from any other day?
its so bloody commercialised."
-ah. i think its an age gap thing.
philosophy was fun; cos the table is brilliant.
kiron ! cedric ! sharyn ! me !
its tres funny.
-to figure out a noun-
"is it in this room?" - yes
"is it me?" - YES.
"hahahhaahhaahhaha"
oooh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIRON! and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEEEEEEEEEEL (TANG) !
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
felt like a third person narrator.speaking of someone else's decisions.
made it seem so easy,
forgot it was me.
im afraid. think im wrong again.
argh.
anyway, shermaine wong is my valentine tomorrow(:
so here's to my one and only shermy !
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY !
three cheers to (you know what !)
i love you sherm(:
theres this heavy half of me thats hoping and praying right now i didnt get as many votes as neha and yuwei and andrea and xinchen and michelle and lucas and gabriel and lavan.
so that everything will be okay. i think they deserve it more.
i have a flaw i didnt mention; im incredibly indecisive.
i stood in front of the full length mirror in my moms room and stared at my long skirt.
what, on earth, have i done?
i dont even recognise myself anymore ): ): ):
it makes me so upset. when it should be the least of my worries.
i must have a bit of a strange brain.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
pam says everyone wants to too.
des thinks im an idiot and that he wont want to marry me.
ah, its not like im serious anyway !
i just need an idol.
things have been getting too boring since i stopped my keita-frenzy like a year and a bit back.
so now i shall be gaspard crazy !
and i'll watch the hannibal rising dvd even if its scaaaaaary :D
i need some brave soul to watch it with me(:
happy cny anyway(:
the trip was GREAT. i love the entire clan. (by this im referring to my mom's side of relatives cos we're such a big happy group)
everything was brilliant and perfect and oh the fireworks were BRILLIANT. better than ndp i swear. and the movies and the car rides and the mahjong and the fortune cookies and chocolate cake and iGallop and cheese cigarettes and the car rides jampacked with ten teenagers; including a bunch of hysterical screaming girls squashed in the back.
"if chris drives, im taking a cab back"
"if chris drives, im staying in the car; i wanna be on the NEWS !"
and "enam... teh si bing =D"
oh the number games with jolly shandy; cos its the closest to alcohol a bunch of underaged people can get under the scrutiny of about 20 adults.
grarr. the only problem is that its over too soon):
now i have absolutely nothing to look forward to ):
about 0.13 of the school year is over !
rejoice rejoice(:
mom:"so you taking a levels?"
me:"no it'll kill me."
mom : *nods solemnly* "IB it is then."
looks like im gonna have to deal with more admission forms and interviews and tests and stuff all over again ):
but its my choice and i want to go!
but then again, im not all that keen on IB too !
its like, i dont want to do a levels cos its a waste of my time and i just want to focus on subjects relevant to architecture; since ive already made up my mind on what i want to do i shouldnt waste time with biology and chemistry and literature anymore right !
but in IB i'll have to do all those stuff too !
it just increases my chances of getting into an ivy league uni):
i wish i was a little genius;
then i could just take my SATs this year and be over and done with it and me and yimmy could scoot off happily to the states next year.
damn ):
grarrrrr. and i have to decide soon or i'll be too late to take my SATs and there'd be no point anymore !
WHAT SHALL I DO ! ):
and i do love vj ):
oh vday is coming, isnt that lovely?
i think lushikoh should go out together on vday.
the three of us are like perpetually single.
no guy (who isnt some celebrity) seems good enough for our beautiful pamela, and hilly's just immune to the entire male species.
i think pam and hil should have groups of guys falling at their feet this year; pity i wont be in dhs to witness it ):
found this quote from a vday recipe site and i think its very sweet:
"suki sugite,
"suki sugite,
kirai ni narisoo.
-- uso."
and a picture of a lovelorn looking girl leaning over a railing.
looking all sweet and sad.
it means:
"when you like someone too much,
it becomes hate.
-- rubbish."
grarr it sounds silly in english; too much is lost in translation!
but you get the gist of it aye.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
i want to SCCREEEAAAAAAAMMM in your face.for me, sharyn, and lucas.
cos WE deserve better than this.
and you got it all wrong.
now i shall cheer up like sharyn says(:
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY FISHCAKE !(:my stupid oven died.
):
my mom was baking a pizza and then suddenly it just conked off.
great huh?
so i couldnt bake a cake or anything):
oh its indrie's birthday too but she doesnt read blogs but HAPPY BIRTHDAY INDRIE!(:
she's 17 too which means she's the EXACTTTT same age as cephas.
cool aye(:
thankfully, this vday im not baking !
i'm doing something else which doesnt require the oven. phew.
i absolutely love vday issues of my jap mags(:
theyre lovely.
and there's a really cute model in loveberry who looks a LOT like perle!!
i just discovered at a reunion dinner today that i have a cousin who works at ZOUK O_O
omgomgomg.
i was like "serious?!"
and he was like "serious !"
:DDDDDDDD
i'll be off to malaysia tomorrow, (till saturday :D)
but the hotel has internet so i can bring my laptop, but then again maybe i wont come online cos i dont want to see this world/ remember that i have to come back.
anyway,
I MISS YOU TOO ANTHEA! )))))))):
im extremely glad that i can do SIP with dear andrea and rachel (:
lalallaa~
stand close to me,
dont sail away baby !
let them see your heart,
let them see just how beautiful you are!
you're like nobody else you see,
nothing less than any girl in your magazine,
dont you know youre special,
youre really something special,
baaaaaabyyyyyyyy, yeah !
gosh now im Between the Trees mad thanks to cedrrrrrrric(:
Monday, February 4, 2008
where has the determination i had just a couple of minutes ago gone off to now?
its frustrating;
there are times when my mind's so clear and im bent, set my mind on doing certain things.
then an hour or so later everything just dissipates out of my head and im back to square one.
fretting my own head off.
about what, i cant even remember.
anyway,
i have a favourite word right now,
and thats "upset"
its not that im feeling upset cos' im actually feeling rather fine (if we could eliminate the element of confusion), but,
its because when you say you're "upset" with someone it could mean many things,
im UPSET with you because you made me sad ):
or,
im UPSET with you now because you just angered me.
or
im UPSET at how you disappoint me time and time again.
youre just NOT happy and it sounds so much better than im "sad" or im "angry"
im just "upset" !
it could be a mixture of many emotions and thats good cos more often that not we feel so many things at the same time and this lovely easy-to-spell word captures it all !
"im disappointed, im sad, im angry, im frustrated" = "im upset !"
there we go(:
see? "upset" is a very amazing word(:
gooodnight(:
i feel like marrying gaspard ulliel so i told pam and she said "dont we all?"
Friday, February 1, 2008
ant just reminded me to post the post i promised to post.i cant believe its been nearly an entire week since last sunday already !
oh man; time passes wayyyy too quickly!
i just realised i havent uploaded the pics ant passed to me so i'll just post those edward sent me(:
we met a certain romeo who had a juliet friend and thats reeaaally cool(:
and ed's phone has all these funky fuctions !so we took fun photos (:
the centre thingy is all our scribbles with our chinese names and stuff(:edward has a very complicated chinese name. its really tough to write !
and this is part 3 of edward's birthday present ! (: it is aslurpingape teeshirt which is tres adorable(:oh man i need to post more photos or i cant post this post properly T_T
but i cant find my thumbdrive AGAIN !
nevermind tomorrow then !
crashed pegasus' house meeting thingy today with anthea and ed(:
we went to cheer for jerald ! and watch him give his speech :D
bet he'll get in anyway(:
i feel so sorry for me and des;
we have to go meet a man on monday.
a freaky freaky man.
who has serious issues.
i think our lives are in jeopardy ):
and no, im not kidding.
oh, how dangerous.
hope i'll be able to make it home to have my weekly monday phone call with gloria love.
i hate chinese. its all mumble jumble and i dont know whats going on with anything cos all i hear is noise and noise and more noise.
and laumeownoi keeps staring me down.
and when i look at chinese texts my head hurts and all i see are weird lines meshed together;
not a language.
i miss anttthea again ):
oh god its saturday tomorrow and i still have to go back to school.
i mean i love vj and all;
but six days a week is too much for me ! ):
i would like a cookie now please.
cos youre the brightest star and i'm in love with you !